Tuesday, March 04, 2008
The Clubfoot Saga Continues Right Along With Shoe Shopping!
When Laura was released from her last round of casts and we set eyes on those perfectly straight little feet, it was all I could do not to cry. Tears of joy. Lots of them. I dreamed of buying shoes - lots of shoes - and totally enjoying life with just some SMO's to deal with for awhile. But as you might assume, it was not to be.
Within two weeks, her straight little foot was once again leaning the wrong way. Her heel varus will not stay corrected. I don't believe it is as bad as it once was, but it definitely isn't straight any more. However, she is not in pain again. And she's already outgrown the need to have her SMO's. She runs around the house like a champ from the moment she gets up until we put her to bed again that night. Her foot does seem to get tired when she's walking a lot without the SMO's so I use them anyway when she's wearing any type of shoe. Yes, there are some definite benefits and we are making progress. It just is slow going right now. And I find that not knowing what lies ahead is a very frustrating place to be.
We head to St. Louis again this weekend. Dr. Dobbs will be seeing us bright and early Monday morning at 7 AM where we'll discuss our options from here and most likely put her in another set of casts. I find myself wondering what new thing the medical community will learn from treating her. And I wonder just how gentle and understanding she'll be because of all she's been through.
I also keep wondering what it is that I'm supposed to learn from all of this besides how to drive to and from St. Louis with my eyes closed. Well, sort of. :) I'm sure there's something that I'm supposed to learn yet and I just haven't concurred it yet. Perhaps I need to keep relearning how to let go and let God handle it but I keep thinking I do that in this situation. Hmmmm... maybe there is something to that 'in this situation' thing... But what else? Perhaps I need to learn how to just be happy no matter what or to learn new research techniques to help find the answer or ???? I don't know. But I'll keep on keeping on until we solve her dilemma.
Meanwhile, I have discovered some great shoes and am dreaming about a few more. See Kai Run shoes work great with SMO's - that is what she's wearing in the picture. They are made wider than normal shoes so they fit and look completely normal on. No stretching over the inserts or not having the velcro strap reach where it is supposed to. I love See Kai Run shoes! We also discovered a pair of boots from Target that fit over them and we've been wearing those a lot. And the older style of Preschoolians fit great over SMO's, too, as long as you take the shoe insert out. But her Preschoolians are getting too small so it is time to find some new ones and I'm not sure their new style will work. But I'm going to try anyway if I can find a bargain. I keep wanting to buy something that fits and will go with some of her clothing that isn't pink, but since we are facing an unknown, I'm just browsing now and will buy something when I know what we have to deal with in the future. So I keep looking, and Laura is drooling and proclaiming "OH those are SOOO CUUUUUTE!" at every other pair. I fear she'll be fascinated with shoes for the rest of her life. But then that's not so bad. I'll just teach her to shop bargains!