Sometimes You Wonder

Sometimes you wonder why. Why is it that you can spend all night tossing and turning and struggling to get to sleep, finally achieving this great feat only 15 minutes before the alarm rings? Why is it that you can speak your child's name 15 times and get no response but their friends whisper their name in the midst of playing a video game because they need help and they answer right away? Why is it that you can spend an hour teaching a lesson on a wonderfully interesting subject where great conversations have led to interesting ah-ha moments and your son can't remember a thing about it four hours later at dinner? Why is it that God created men and women so differently and then ordained them to live together?

Sometimes you wonder when. When will your daughter begin to understand that the world does not revolve around her every whim? When will your house stay clean for more than an hour in the middle of the day? When will a sunny day happen at the same time that you happen to have more time to enjoy it? When will your ship come in?

Sometimes you wonder how. How will you manage all of the house repairs that need done and still keep within your budget? How will you keep your children headed in the right direction without losing their creativity or zest for life, and yet give them the ability to have a tender heart towards others, achieve self-control and know that they have a place in life even if it isn't in the same field as everyone else? How will you get everything done this week? How will you lose that weight that keeps following you around no matter how hard you try to lose it?

Sometimes you wonder. But then you realize that you only need to let go. Let go and let someone who is greater than you handle all of life's questions. The big and the small. The easy and the difficult. The confused and the sane. All of them.

Now I wonder how many times I'm going to have to remember that...